Pieces of Myself

21st August 2009

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I made a new Tumblr because I just wanna start over anyways.

If you enjoy my Tumblr or would like to follow my new one you can find out these ways.

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21st August 2009

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Alright, Sophia.

onefishestwofish:

fauxconfidence:

I guess you win. I hope making a girl cry over herself makes you feel better. Isn’t that what this was all about anyways? Hurting someone by “being honest”. Bringing someone down with words. Telling me I look beastly and your friends are laughing about me. Calling me fat, telling me “a lil anorexia wouldn’t hurt”, calling my life “sad”. Comparing your “sweaty drunk pictures” to my “prom pictures” and saying even those pictures of yours looked better then my good ones. I mean, really? I hope, one day, that people see you for what you really are. A mean hearted person who actually finds enjoyment in hurting someone.

Although I was tempted to comment on your prior posts regarding this situation, I stopped myself short. But after seeing this post you wrote, I decided that there wasn’t really a reason for me to stop myself. In the middle of last year, both my boyfriend and myself were sent nasty messages from the same girl that you mention has been saying these shitty things to you. Although I’m not going to go through the details of why she sent these messages, the general idea of it was that she made accusations towards us that were not only hurtful, but also entirely untrue. Being called a “a raging drug addict” definetly hurt my feelings a lot, as I know the things that she said to you also hurt your feelings immensly. She eventually apologized for the accusations that she made towards myself and my boyfriend, for which I was grateful that she was big enough to confront the fact that she had made a mistake and I admire her for her apology to us. I hope that you know that the words from her that are hurting you now are entirely untrue, although I don’t personally know you, you aren’t ugly in the least bit and shouldn’t let these cruel words get you down. Maybe she will recognize that her words to you were also hurtful and apologize, but maybe not. For your sake, I hope that she does apologize, but don’t let mean words get you down. I’m sure that there are an abundance of nicer words that people have said to you in the past, keep those words in mind and keep your head high, girl. =)

Wow. This just surprised me. You have really good grammar. I know that’s strange for me to say. Anyways, it surprised me that she sent nasty messages to someone else. I guess I really got the sense that she did enjoy hurting me, and I kind of also hope that she apologizes. This all started over something I believe was pretty silly. I posted on her boyfriend’s tumblr about a pair of pants he was questions about/posting (not sure). Something along the lines of “What do you think about these jeans?” and I replied with something sort of like “I’d fuck you if you were wearing them”. That was actually prior to even seeing pictures of this kid. I think I had just started following him a week or so earlier and had so many people on my dashboard (before I realized it was kind of unbearable) that I don’t believe I had ever seen a picture of him before. Either way, whatever. I said something but meant it innocently and just in a humorous tone. It wasn’t like I was trying to fuck him physically. Obviously. She emailed me. Continued to call me fat, saying I shouldn’t send messages like that to a guy who wouldn’t touch me or whatever. I don’t even remember. I just know at that time it didn’t hurt and I didn’t give a fuck. I posted some picture of her from her facebook default because I was unblocking her (because I didn’t want more messages from her). My friend thought the situation her and I had gotten into then was funny and I just posted a picture. “Hey, remember when this girl was…” or whatever the post said. She emailed me again. Anyways…

Wait, I shouldn’t of tried to explain it. You’re right. It doesn’t matter. Thank you for your kind words and for the story. :)

20th August 2009

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Alright, Sophia.

I guess you win. I hope making a girl cry over herself makes you feel better. Isn’t that what this was all about anyways? Hurting someone by “being honest”. Bringing someone down with words. Telling me I look beastly and your friends are laughing about me. Calling me fat, telling me “a lil anorexia wouldn’t hurt”, calling my life “sad”. Comparing your “sweaty drunk pictures” to my “prom pictures” and saying even those pictures of yours looked better then my good ones. I mean, really? I hope, one day, that people see you for what you really are. A mean hearted person who actually finds enjoyment in hurting someone.

20th August 2009

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Man, hearing your fat and ugly more then 3 times a day.....

by the same person. Shew. Hard times.

*Hockey party tonight. Byeeee*

20th August 2009

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SOPHIA, when you reblog my stuff to diss me, it brings my tumblarity up.

thank you.

20th August 2009

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(via hannuhbuhnana)

Oh, Hannah.

20th August 2009

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I'm an ugly bitch.

20th August 2009

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I'm leaving Tumblr.

sophalopha:

fauxconfidence:

So, goodbye guys. Nice knowing ya.

HELL YEAAAA

THEN JUST UNFOLLOW ME.

Anyways, this reblog made me change my mind.

20th August 2009

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I'm leaving Tumblr.

So, goodbye guys. Nice knowing ya.

20th August 2009

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Taking a break from moving shit from Wan

Do you realize how beautiful you are? I can tell through your Tumblr that you literally do have “fauxconfidence” and you honestly shouldn’t. These boys you put in your life to make you feel good about yourself, in all reality, are just going to bring you down. You have a smile that makes me smile too, a voice that makes me feel welcome (audio posts), and I can even notice the big heart that you have. I can tell those two girls on your tumblr that are your friends really do love you and care. But, I also get the drift from your Tumblr that you hide something from everyone you know. There are secrets you don’t tell anyone at all. You’re a depressed person and you hide behind a smile, a stunning face, and a warm/open heart. You are smart, you are a gifted writer, and you are better then you think you are. I hope one day, you will see yourself as friends (and strangers like me) see you. Shine bright, beautiful star!

Wow. I…. I don’t even know what to say. I don’t realize how beautiful I am. I don’t really know what to say to that. I mean, the name of my blog does suit me very, very well. The thing is, there actually are some days where I do feel that pride, that confidence. But, not very many. I don’t want to talk about the “boys I put in my life”. I don’t want to talk about them because I fully understand the reasonings behind the things I do (that involves boys) and I also fully understand the consequences and the pain it will cause me. Apparently… I don’t give a fuck. Which, is sad and upsets me. The things that make me feel good now but have repercussions…. seriously just pass right through my head. I do have a big heart. It helps me get hurt easily. But, it also helps me forgive easily. Hannah and Chelsey? Yes, I know they care. Everyone has a secret life. I choose to keep it that way. SECRET. It comforts me. My secrets give me strength. Does that sound strange? Yeah…. depression. I feel like it wastes my time. I try not to spend my day sad. But, at night… it creeps up on me full force if I’m alone. Thank you for this. You made me smile. You made me think.

ecstacy is awesome as long as you dont get carried away with it. it expect you already know this but sex on e is, well its undescribable. you can go for hours and its the best feeling ever. some people say it ruins regular sex but it didn’t for me. i mean come on, sex is still the greatest fucking thing in the world (universe?) just remember to have a gallon of water next to the bed

I’ve done it 3 times. Today will be my fourth. Have yet to have sex on it. But, I’m kind of hanging out with this Abercrombie/Calvin Klein model right now. No, legit. This is real. His name is Tyler Batchel and he is here for soem promotion bullshit and Wan works at Abercrombie so he’s “showing Tyler the town”. HAHA. Maybe I’ll have sex with him?? He;s beautiful. Google him.

We’re getting married.

Are we now? I really like your proposal. I don’t need a diamond. A cool ass pearl would be sweet. :)

we will be togerther forever. you’ll see.

Ya know, I was just thinking the same thing. Forever sounds nice

gap tooth smile is hot as shit.

Wow. That actually means A LOT to me. Thank you. :) (I need to create a smily that makes it look gap tooth…. let’s work on this!)

BACK TO MOVING/SMOKING AND BACK TO THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN, TYLER